night conversation with someone

this late night conversation

this feeling of caring nothing about what's gonna happen tomorrow

this butterfly on my tummy

staring at the bottom part of this computer screen, waiting it to blink

i really miss this.

how can i not see this?

i missed someone! and that someone is here now, right in front of me

and this is a reminder that

she's with me! she's with me! i said it repeatly to myself

i want this to last, more than anything else

because time stops when she's with me.

SEMUA TENTANG GW .

Orang yang masih engga ngerti kehidupan . Orang yang masih memikirkan tentang dunia yang aneh ini. Orang yang gemar melamun. Orang yang gemar dengar humor. Orang yang gemar melihat awan. Orang yang mendramatisir. Orang yang gak suka makan nasi dingin. Orang yang gak berani megang ikan. Orang yang sering di pandang aneh. Orang yang sering ditindas. Orang yang selalu menyesal belakangan. Orang yang masih belum bisa maen kelereng. Orang yang masih belum bisa melipat baju dengan bagus. Orang yang mudah tersentuh. Orang yang selalu bertanya kenapa ini dan kenapa itu. Orang yang tertutup. 

killing me inside "the tormented"

i want you never now . when i see you with your boyfriend .

Conversation at noon with billy

billy : eh you . I KNOW YOU LIKE TARA NOW !
GW : you know from ?
billy : arsari !
gw : oh
billy : but, i know tara don't like you
gw : whatever .
billy : you wanna her back for you ?
gw : no
billy : you lie betmen ( terjemahan : manusia kampret )
gw :  haha .
billy : you don't love her again ?
gw : no . im love her , but Im waiting .
billy : waiting ?
gw : yes , im wait him for one reason
billy : what the fuck!
gw : hahah .
billy : what the reason ?
gw : i want her get a perfect person . for guard him .
billy : yeah . i know it
gw : after it . i want her comfortable with his boyfriend 
billy : FUCKING TALES ! 
gw : haha , . you know bill . maybe when i see her with his boyfriend . i feel happy . haha 
billy : lie 
gw :  . whatever 

i am

at the beginning of the day i keep asking rethorical question,
"will it be the same today like it was yesterday?"
i mean cmon, what kind of asshole asks that kind of question to himself?
am i really that bad?
im just this kid who still doesnt know certain places cool people go to hang out
or prescripted drugs to missuse to distract all their sad-ass problems
(oh i wish i had one)

am i having a depression?

will this make me suicidal?

i guess when you were once an asshole, and then you're up, everyone u used to know tries to pull you down

well sadly,
the worst thing about the end of the day, is that tomorrow it will start all over again

just remember that

i want this

now

even

more

than ive wanted this

before.

i dont know what to do

im so lost.

im so tired

and i dont know what im talking about anymore

but

i want this.

you just remember that

The tormented

For the last time you waste my tears now, no more torment
But don't just say u've gone away
You tell a fuckin' tale
(Swallow me and spit me out)
How do I get trought of this?
(I can't stand it anymore)
Can, you, see, me...
Smiling when I sing this song
Right, now...
I just want to be alive
You know I was dying when you told me
(That I'm not yours anymore)
You know I was dying when you told me
(Youre just playing and fooling around with me)
When the time she comes and wakes me
(She comes and wakes me)
And when she bit my lips and kissed me there
And when she holds my hand and lives my life tonight
(Live tonight)
When she said that she really loves me
Were the worst fucking days
I'm dying and bleeding of my past
I'm dying and bleeding of my past
Now slit my throat and let me bleed
Now slit my throat and let me bleed
Can, you, see, me...
Smiling when I sing this song
Right, now...
I just want to be alive
You know I was dying when you told me
(That I'm not yours anymore)
You know I was dying when you told me
(Youre just playing and fooling around with me)
When the time she comes and wakes me
(She comes and wakes me)
And when she bit my lips and kissed me there
And when she holds my hand and lives my life tonight
(Live tonight)
When she said that she really loves me
But suddenly you came to me, and begged me to be yours again
Right now you're holding my hand but sorry baby, but all I can say is
No, hell no...
Can you see the times grows older she blew my dreams away
It's all done, the time is over
I don't know how to say to you
Can you see the times grows older she blew my dreams away
It's all done, the time is over
I don't know how to say

Vanilla Twilight

Welcoming the sophomore

Little Girl In Town

Owl city : vanilla twilight

The stars lean down to kiss you
And I lie awake and miss you
Pour me a heavy dose of atmosphere

'Cause I'll doze off safe and soundly
But I'll miss your arms around me
I'd send a postcard to you, dear
'Cause I wish you were here

I'll watch the night turn light-blue
But it's not the same without you
Because it takes two to whisper quietly

The silence isn't so bad
'Til I look at my hands and feel sad
'Cause the spaces between my fingers
Are right where yours fit perfectly

I'll find repose in new ways
Though I haven't slept in two days
'Cause cold nostalgia
Chills me to the bone

But drenched in vanilla twilight
I'll sit on the front porch all night
Waist-deep in thought because
When I think of you I don't feel so alone

I don't feel so alone, I don't feel so alone

As many times as I blink
I'll think of you tonight
I'll think of you tonight

When violet eyes get brighter
And heavy wings grow lighter
I'll taste the sky and feel alive again

And I'll forget the world that I knew
But I swear I won't forget you

Oh, if my voice could reach
Back through the past
I'd whisper in your ear
Oh darling, I wish you were here

can be fun

can be fun ...yap ... kali ini tentang ... orang2 yg mungkin berfikir cinta itu gampang ....... sebagian dr mereka tak sadar bahwa sebenar nya banyak orang di luar sana yg sulit melupakan cinta ,,,,....



tips dr gw ....

1. hindari kontak dgn dia ..... jika ingin melupakan nya .... jgn datang ke tempat dya byasa nongkrong ...hindari buka hp sambil liat2 sms dr dya entar lo ke pikiran buat sms dya lagi ..... gw inget bgt kata tante gw .... cinta ga sebesar daun kelor .... bagi yg ga ngerti ... kasian deh lo ... hha ...
2. anggap lo lebih baik dari dya ...  tulis di kertas tentang ke lebihan lo ..... tempel di dinding agar lo merasa yakin dya ga pantes kg buat lo .....
3. klo masih da fto dya di dompet lo ... lebih baik jgn di buang ..... buat aja indikator bahwa dya sudah ga ada lagi di hati lo ... and klo lo dah ngerasa udh ga ada feel sm dy buang th fto ... kubur di tanah ...hha 

cara yg terakhir butuh kesabaran mental ..... ada pepatah yg bilang love ur enemy ..... jd kita harus menguasai mental kita apapun yg terjadi .... klo lo ga bs lupain dya lo bkal ancur ... sdangkan dya udh have fun dgn yg lain ... kan lo bs jd gila jg .....

have a nice day ...

remember ....

kadang orang terlupa ....kadang orang pun mengingat jelas apa yg di alaminya ........

ini cerita tntng gw masih duduk di bangku smp kelas satu yg blum ngerti apa2 ,,,... ( masih lugu )

awal cerita gw bru putus sama salah satu mantan gw ..

gw putus mungkin karna gw masih ingin cari yg lbih baik dr pada dya .... (byasa sifat lelaki ) ..

stelah itu gw bs di bilang deket sama seorang perempuan ...setelah gw dket sama th manusia gw mencurah kan isi hati gw ke dya ...terus hasil selanjut nya bs di tebak ... gw di tolak ...... hha .... 

gw putus asa ...... gw deketin dya terus tp ttp aj .... dya menghindar ..... frustasi gw .....


tp setelah dya melihat jerih payah gw .... dya mungkin sadar ..... 


dan bego nya gw .... di saat dya pgn menerima gw ... gw malah kembali ke mantan gw ....


PS : jangan suka menyianyiakan orang .... siapapun dy ....

night slalom ........

night slalom ...... bnr2 asik ..... n seru ........ hha ......




kpn w bs y ????



bdw ... apa itu slalom ??? bagi yg gatau kasian deh u .....