Conversation at noon with billy

billy : eh you . I KNOW YOU LIKE TARA NOW !
GW : you know from ?
billy : arsari !
gw : oh
billy : but, i know tara don't like you
gw : whatever .
billy : you wanna her back for you ?
gw : no
billy : you lie betmen ( terjemahan : manusia kampret )
gw :  haha .
billy : you don't love her again ?
gw : no . im love her , but Im waiting .
billy : waiting ?
gw : yes , im wait him for one reason
billy : what the fuck!
gw : hahah .
billy : what the reason ?
gw : i want her get a perfect person . for guard him .
billy : yeah . i know it
gw : after it . i want her comfortable with his boyfriend 
billy : FUCKING TALES ! 
gw : haha , . you know bill . maybe when i see her with his boyfriend . i feel happy . haha 
billy : lie 
gw :  . whatever 

i am

at the beginning of the day i keep asking rethorical question,
"will it be the same today like it was yesterday?"
i mean cmon, what kind of asshole asks that kind of question to himself?
am i really that bad?
im just this kid who still doesnt know certain places cool people go to hang out
or prescripted drugs to missuse to distract all their sad-ass problems
(oh i wish i had one)

am i having a depression?

will this make me suicidal?

i guess when you were once an asshole, and then you're up, everyone u used to know tries to pull you down

well sadly,
the worst thing about the end of the day, is that tomorrow it will start all over again

just remember that

i want this

now

even

more

than ive wanted this

before.

i dont know what to do

im so lost.

im so tired

and i dont know what im talking about anymore

but

i want this.

you just remember that

The tormented

For the last time you waste my tears now, no more torment
But don't just say u've gone away
You tell a fuckin' tale
(Swallow me and spit me out)
How do I get trought of this?
(I can't stand it anymore)
Can, you, see, me...
Smiling when I sing this song
Right, now...
I just want to be alive
You know I was dying when you told me
(That I'm not yours anymore)
You know I was dying when you told me
(Youre just playing and fooling around with me)
When the time she comes and wakes me
(She comes and wakes me)
And when she bit my lips and kissed me there
And when she holds my hand and lives my life tonight
(Live tonight)
When she said that she really loves me
Were the worst fucking days
I'm dying and bleeding of my past
I'm dying and bleeding of my past
Now slit my throat and let me bleed
Now slit my throat and let me bleed
Can, you, see, me...
Smiling when I sing this song
Right, now...
I just want to be alive
You know I was dying when you told me
(That I'm not yours anymore)
You know I was dying when you told me
(Youre just playing and fooling around with me)
When the time she comes and wakes me
(She comes and wakes me)
And when she bit my lips and kissed me there
And when she holds my hand and lives my life tonight
(Live tonight)
When she said that she really loves me
But suddenly you came to me, and begged me to be yours again
Right now you're holding my hand but sorry baby, but all I can say is
No, hell no...
Can you see the times grows older she blew my dreams away
It's all done, the time is over
I don't know how to say to you
Can you see the times grows older she blew my dreams away
It's all done, the time is over
I don't know how to say

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